My
scripture today is from John 21:9-19. One of my favorite comedians is Garrison Keillor who is the
host of the Prairie Home Companion on Public Radio. In one of his skits he tells of a man in Lake
Wobegon who was saved 12 times at the altar of a Lutheran church that never
gave altar calls. He would come to the altar time after time and weep buckets
and buckets of tears and come back the next Sunday and do the very same thing.
Larry Sorensen kept repenting and repenting but somehow he couldn’t get beyond
the repenting stage. Pretty soon even the “fundamentalists got tired of him.”
Larry couldn’t believe that Jesus could totally forgive him; and the guilt of
all he had done caused him to be unable to forgive himself. Instead of being
free to move on, he came to church week after week constantly feeling guilty
and trying to get back on track over and over again. Today’s scripture points to a person who Jesus had called to
be a fisherman of people. He got off track lots of times--he was always
blurting out things without thinking, He was always taking some hasty action he
regretted later, but the worst thing was when he denied Christ. He said he
never would. But he did. He blew it big time. He thought he was disqualified
from ever doing the Lord’s work again. At the beginning of this chapter Peter says, “I’m going
fishing.” He was really saying, “What is there left for me but to go back to my
old job. I’ve got to do something. I have totally failed the Lord. I feel
guilty about it, but I can’t forgive myself.” He goes off with the weight of
guilt hanging heavy on his shoulders, back to his old job. He struggles with
where do I go from here? What do I do now? I blame myself over and over for what
I did. I can’t do anything about it. He probably replayed the tape over and
over from the time he denied Christ, but it didn’t do any good. He could not
forgive himself and maybe he wasn’t sure if the Lord could even forgive him. It
seemed just too difficult.
There’s a man trying to cross the street. As he steps off
the curb a car comes screaming around the corner and heads straight for him.
The man walks faster, trying to hurry across the street, but the car changes
lanes and is still coming at him. So the guy turns around to go back, but the car changes
lanes again and is still coming at him. By now, the car is so close and the man
so scared that he just freezes and stops in the middle of the road. The car
gets real close, then swerves at the last possible moment and screeches to a
halt right next him. The driver rolls
down the window. The driver is a squirrel. The squirrel says to the man, "See, it’s not as easy as it looks, is
it?" Does this sound familiar to you when trying to forgive
yourself for something? At times there are certain things you look back on in
your life that you punish yourself over and over for just like Peter did. It
seems impossible to overcome. What can this scripture say to us today that will
help us to get past the things that are keeping us chained to the past?
1.
Jesus Walked Into Peter’s Life: Jesus wasn’t far from Peter
although he thought he was. In fact that day on the beach Jesus invited Peter
and the other disciples to a carry in breakfast. He said, “come and have
breakfast and bring some of the fish you have just caught.” Jesus took the initiative to invite Peter to
breakfast. Most of the time we do not
pick up on the invitation. We don’t hear Jesus say to us, “Come to me all of
you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest” (Matthew
11:28 NLT) because we are so busy struggling and beating ourselves up over the
past. We are still stuck in our guilt. Jesus is saying, “Come to breakfast.” Bring
some of the fish you’ve caught. You are
included.” We all want to be included but we have a hard time breaking
through our own barriers. Jesus says, “Come on. Don’t just sit there. Let’s
enjoy the morning.” We say, “but Lord, I’m not deserving. I can’t forget what I
have done in the past. I can’t get over it.” Jesus is saying, “You’re invited.
Come on.” Should
Peter risk it? What if Jesus didn’t REALLY mean it. What if I
BLOW IT again? What if I MESS UP and say the wrong things? Peter might have
been a little apprehensive about accepting the invitation. He thinks he has
been disqualified. When we are faced with the invitation to come to Jesus we
often are afraid to accept it. The
biggest obstacle to self-forgiveness may be the tendency to wallow in our own
guilt. It’s not that we feel bad because we know we’ve done wrong but we
draw those feelings up around us like a blanket and cover our heads. We refuse
to push the stop button on our wailing just like Larry did at Lake Wobegone. According to one psychologist when we
refuse to forgive ourselves it’s a “crazy form of penance.” Many people decide
to punish themselves for the rest of their lives by feeling miserable day after
day. The decision to feel miserable for the rest of your life can have
tragic consequences because it affects everyone around you. Peter could have refused the invitation to breakfast. He
could have said, “I’m going to stay right here. I’m not going to risk it.” But
he didn’t. I think we need to be more like Peter--a risk taker. See what
happens. After all Jesus said, “Come on over for breakfast. It was His idea.” The disciples took the bread and the fish that Jesus gave to
them. It was what they all needed that day--not just Peter alone. Jesus offers
to us exactly what we need in our current situation just as he did to them that
morning, but he had a greater purpose in it for Peter. He had a special job for
Peter to do and Peter wasn’t doing it. Peter had to move on. To get unstuck
from all of the barriers that were hindering him. We need to deal with our past
and experience not only the forgiveness that Jesus brought to us on the cross
but to understand that his grace is enough to cover forgiving ourselves as
well. It is a part of the package.
2. More
Than Breakfast: After breakfast Jesus singled Peter out and
asked him a question. “Simon, do you truly love me more than these?” He could
have been referring to Peter’s fishing boats, his job as a fisherman, or he
could have been referring to the others in the group. Jesus is trying to find
out what the depth of His love for was for Him. Was it just a shallow,
superficial love or was it rock solid like his name--Cephas the Rock as Jesus
had called him in John 1:42. A man took his son fishing one day. After a few hours in the
boat with not much to do, the son started asking his father some questions. "How
does the boat float?" he asked. The man thought about the question, then
said, "I don’t really know, son."
"Well, how do fish breath underwater?" The man
scratched his head. "I guess I don’t know the answer to that one
either.""Why is the sky blue?" the boy persisted. The father
replied, "I really don’t know, son." The boy started to worry that
his father was getting upset at all the questions. "Do you mind me asking
questions, Dad?" His father immediately reassured him. "No, of course
not, son! If you don’t ask questions, you’ll never learn anything!"
Jesus got better answers than this little boy did. Peter
answers, “Yes, Lord you know that I love you” Jesus presses Peter more in the
next question and the next.. After each of Peter’s responses, Jesus gave him an
assignment. After the first he said. vs.
15 Feed my lambs --the young Christian
believers. vs. 16 Take care of my sheep--be
a shepherd to my sheep. Look after them. Keep them safe from harm. vs. 17 Feed my sheep. Take the sheep
to pasture where they are fed. Jesus is looking for a total renewal of
his loyalty and a reaffirmation of his responsibilities. Follow
me and keep on following me. Jesus knew that if he could
get Peter to move away from his guilt over the past and to get him to not only
follow him but to keep following him that Peter would become a productive
person again. He would find his own healing as he reached out to others. Jesus
is telling him “I’ve got work for you to
do. If you really love me you are going to feed my lambs. You’re going to help
these new Christians. You are going to get the focus off of yourself. You are
going to be involved in helping other people….and Peter says, “OK, I’ll do
that.” Jesus asks the second time, “Peter do you truly love
me?” Peter says, “Yes, Lord, you know
that I love you.” “Then if you do,”
‘Take care of my sheep,’ replied Jesus. The third time Jesus asks him, “Simon do you love me?” Peter
was getting agitated by this same question. He says, “Lord you know all things.
You know that I love you.” Then Jesus
said, “Feed my sheep.” What
good did these questions serve? Jesus wanted Peter to really
look at his feelings. He wanted him to
get over the past and now it was time to experience total forgiveness, to be
able to get on with his life and the responsibilities Jesus had called him to.
He couldn’t be an effective shepherd to the young Christians or to the
established Christians as long as he remained in a state of not forgiving
himself for denying Jesus. Jesus parallels Peter’s denial with three questions
of restoration. Do you love me--then do this assignment. Do you love me--then
feed my lambs, take care of my sheep, feed my sheep. The breakfast had fulfilled its intended purpose for Peter. A
restoration and a re-commission.
3. It’s
time to push the Stop Button: For Peter this breakfast was
the turning point. It was time to push the stop button on the guilt. Self
forgiveness is a tool with which we face what we’ve done in the past, acknowledge
our mistakes and move on. This is
exactly what Peter had to do when Jesus was questioning him. If he truly loved
Jesus he had to realize that the guilt and self punishment had to go. The grace
of God covers a multitude of sins. True forgiveness is found in allowing Jesus
to do his work in our lives.Hit the stop button. Replaying over and over again in your
head is not going to help you any. Listen to yourself. Every time you catch
yourself rehashing your sins, stop and refocus on what Jesus did on the cross
for you. His forgiveness covers it all. Let go of it and decide to move on to
more productive things. If you need to go back and apologize to someone you’ve
hurt, do it.
Begin to repair the damage you may have done in the past by
giving out good to others around you. Some things you can’t change. You can’t
always make it up to someone in the past, but you can do some helpful things to
people now. Peter could not go back and undo a lot of those foot-in-the mouth
statements he made or those impulsive actions. But he was facing a new day with
new opportunities to help people in the future--the lambs (the new
believers--the sheep (the more established believers). There were abundant
opportunities before him. Jesus was saying, “Peter, you have been
re-commissioned. Don’t spend your time repenting and repenting over and over
again. Get with the program. You’ve got lots of work to do. Guys….Don’t
beat yourself up over the past. Jesus says to us, “I have forgiven you totally.
His forgiveness is all inclusive. That forgiveness includes forgiving
yourself.”
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